The Weight of Being a Woman
Sometimes the heaviness of my uterus is unbearable
Like a boulder in a Saran wrap hammock
We hope it holds
Let's pray that it holds.
I feel my cradle ripping apart
Tendons are popping
-They burn
But I flex the floor of my womanhood
and unbeknownst to you-
I heal.
Sometimes the heaviness of my uterus is suffered in silence
I grit my teeth
I swallow my pride
and my pain
amd my past
And it sits on top of that boulder
sitting on top of that recycled Saran wrap
and it pulls
and it tears
It's the weight of being a woman.
Tomboy
from each of my pores falls a slight little girl
she dangles by pigtails
and tall softball socks with blue stripes and red-brown dirt stains
she screams for her daddy
as he turns to face his sun and line him up at the plate
and comes Mommy to the rescue
as she tangles her toes in dark, curly bangs
but there is no substitute for her daddy's pitch waves
and she cries once again for the maleness that has alluded her
for the pieces that she was not given
a flood of acidic tears
severs her cord
and away she is washed in the darkness of it all
rid of her I am
as I realize Mother Nature
made a promise she cannot take back
and I thank her for my womaness
as I pray to the God of curves
and delicacies
and strength
to further give me gifts
and annunciate my womanhood
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